Random rant against my mom

My mom thinks I am the most irresponsible person ever yet she doesn’t want me to work? (photographing people). Regardless of how much I am earning (which is fairly low), my mom thinks I should just “concentrate” on my education. I don’t intend to go back to school before the next 6 months. So what should I study? 
Okay, and then today when I wanted to get a hot stone massage with my own money (she would kill me if I told her I was getting a massage for $125) , she heard me reserving a spot with the cashier at the spa. Of course, the girl thought she was just a mom “shopping” with her daughter, but when I was leaving the Spa and the girl told me when my appointment is, my mom quickly interrupted and said “take your card” and the cashier said “sure” and wrote down my appointment date and time. I don’t mind my mom but then she should really stop telling me I should be independent and never let me grow up. I was so embarrassed in front of the cashier. I wanted to cry.

whatever, i love my mom even if she gets on my nerves sometimes. 


How my financial crises affected my sponsored children

So this is a post filled with regret and apologies. I feel so bad to let down my previous sponsored children.
I was going through a BAD financial time by the end of October. My credit cards were maxed, my debit had an overdraft, and I was also late making my payments to World Vision. I was sponsoring a boy from Bangladesh and a girl from Costa Rica.
(I did not borrow money from my mom, because I only wanted to pay from my OWN money). So there came the time of January when I sorted my debts (my mom paid them all) and I had outdone the limit again. Post January I was in this anti social, pro natural life etc. So , I basically didn’t work , I was only baby sitting a child for a few hours a week where I hardly got paid anything. Whatever I got paid, I paid towards my card with the highest interest.
Then, in June, something happened and I decided to get back to my photography business. I hardly make any money but good enough for myself. Now when I got paid + gifts from family etc I was able to clear somewhat of my debt.
I called World Vision and I asked to make all the payments , I was informed the children I was sponsoring was now taken by someone else. I was paying $80 a month ( I know the approaching season will be slow for my business) hence i decided to take up one child.
This time, I didn’t want to take any risks so I paid 4 months in advance ($150) hence I don’t have to worry about it till December. Isn’t that amazing?
So now i have decided I will put some money aside especially for my sponsored child so whenever I mess up my accounts it doesn’t affect her. I should be more responsible, so I already put one of my payments aside in my savings account ($35) but I have vowed to not touch it no matter how much I need it.

Why you should Sponsor a child ?

No matter how irresponsible you are (if you are more than me, which I highly doubt) I think you get the feeling that you have to do something for someone else. I mean granted I was late by 9 months but I still thought that money would eventually go to the kids so I made the payments.
Sponsoring a child will also give you the feeling of happiness. This year has been my worst year, well somewhat it was terrible but I think this part of my year makes me VERY happy. I was able to do something for someone who really needed it.
I know people are worried if their money is going to the right place, but hello, you can spend $20 on a meal and $30 on a top and you can’t spend $40 on a person who really needs it? We have to take risks, right?

Go Sponsor a child NOW


What is fashion for me?

Fashion once used to be so important for me, to some extent it still is ! I would still invest my money on something that is “happening”. I am not ashamed or anything but I would really like to experiment with my style,outfits, accessories and such. But, I live in Canada and Canada is AMAZING for fashion if you are willing to invest on winter garments which I absolutely dread.
I wish I lived somewhere where the weather was warmer and nicer. I would really like to experiment with fall, spring and summer outfits.
This year has been a pretty crappy year for me. I mean it was good because I gave a lot of time to myself, but fashion wise it sucked.
I am thinking I will buy a sewing machine and start sewing. wouldn’t it be cool?
i was on the subway the other day, I couldn’t help over hearing how a woman was boasting about learning sewing by herself!
I think it would be amazing. What do you think?

Why you should ABSOLUTELY go Vegan!

I know this is a free world and we are all entitled to our opinions but I am very judgemental towards people who are having meat , ice cream etc and not for once thinking where it is all coming from!
I admit I was like that a few months back too, but then I shudder every time i realize where the food I am eating is coming from. A bag of chips definitely has some kind of meat / fish flavour or milk ingredient. Ice cream, chocolates, cookies everything has some kind of animal product involved.

Here are a lot of videos to change your mind about eating meat/ animals in general :

Plus I personally don’t have any bad habits apart from avoiding exercises regularly which are harmful to my general health. Intake of more vegetables is GOOD for your health.

How to go vegan in a few steps :
– UNDERSTAND the pain of animals. How would we feel if someone was torturing us?
– meat makes you fat

Female TV characters – powerful, beautiful, wonderful!

Brooke Davis – If you’ve watched One Tree Hill, you definitely know how Brooke starts out. She is this fun loving girl who just wants to have fun, she was not very likeable in the beginning but I guess she just grew on people. I remember watching the first episode and I took an immediate liking towards Brooke. First season, first episode I became a brucas shipper. I haven’t looked back since.
Brooke Davis reached for her dreams, got her heart broken, was abused by her mom but she still had a beautiful heart , a beautiful smile and hope.
In the end, she was rewarded for her courage. She found the perfect husband in the form of Julian.
Icing on the cake? Sophia , the actress who played Brooke is just like her on screen character. She is so kind, beautiful, amazing and intelligent.

Blair Waldorf – I still have a difficult time accepting Gossip Girl is over. But, over the seasons Blair grew as a human being, a friend and most importantly as a lover. I love her so much. She has been my idol ever since GG began. I love the things she said , the things she did (good things) and I loved her honest love for Chuck.


Imperfection 1 – my academic status

I am a year out of high school, and I can very proudly say I have still not decided where I want to head further. I like photography but I don’t see myself being a full time photographer in the future. I like makeup , fashion but I don’t see a career in any of them. I also like reading/ writing but I cannot imagine myself being a primary school teacher or even a freelance writer. So what do I do? Go to University, get a degree and get a job. Well, that’s ideal, considering my mom would give up anything to send me to any post secondary institution.
Despite my mom’s assumption that my academic status of not going anywhere is pulling me back from my social and regular life, I can PROUDLY say I have never been so  proud of myself as I am today. I do not regret not going to a regular post secondary institution right now. I have read too many books, talked to too many people and really came out of the “time is slipping away” mentality my mom goes on and on about.
I do consider it an imperfection because I still don’t know what I want to do. I find it completely useless to pursue a degree in something that I might not like or even worse get enrolled, lose interest and fail courses ..eventually drop out!
” Always do what you want to do”
” live for YOURSELF”
” live for people in need”
” do something for the WORLD”

Do I think education and a degree is useless? OF COURSE NOT. I still intend to go back to school but I don’t know if it is in January 2014 or September 2014. As long as I do something meanwhile, I am good and happy.