I want my blog to

I want my blog to be my representation, but unfortunately this blog is many things I am not.
I am not always trying to change the world, not always reading books but yes to be honest I am jobless meaning I am not attending any school / college right now (it’s my fourth semester off after high school) 
I am almost 20 and technically I should be in University, getting my bachelor’s but I am not . 
I am still sitting here, writing blog posts (not too often), being vegan, playing with my cat, doing photography once in a while and doing everything many people would categorize as “useless”. 
I could have used this time off well ; travel the world, write a book or even work on a documentary but I didn’t. I chose to watch One Tree Hill, eat too much junk and be isolated.
I don’t regret it though. Although I know I should have done a few things but this time off is good in a way because people need to handle themselves before they can handle bigger responsibilities. 
If I were to join school then, I would flunk and drop out which would not be any good.
Today, although with the help of psychiatrists, anti depressants and too many failures I can stand back up and not care. 
I don’t want to tell my kids or grandkids I was a failure I want to tell them I was able to pull myself together even if it was a bit late and headed for my goal. 

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