I want my blog to

I want my blog to be my representation, but unfortunately this blog is many things I am not.
I am not always trying to change the world, not always reading books but yes to be honest I am jobless meaning I am not attending any school / college right now (it’s my fourth semester off after high school) 
I am almost 20 and technically I should be in University, getting my bachelor’s but I am not . 
I am still sitting here, writing blog posts (not too often), being vegan, playing with my cat, doing photography once in a while and doing everything many people would categorize as “useless”. 
I could have used this time off well ; travel the world, write a book or even work on a documentary but I didn’t. I chose to watch One Tree Hill, eat too much junk and be isolated.
I don’t regret it though. Although I know I should have done a few things but this time off is good in a way because people need to handle themselves before they can handle bigger responsibilities. 
If I were to join school then, I would flunk and drop out which would not be any good.
Today, although with the help of psychiatrists, anti depressants and too many failures I can stand back up and not care. 
I don’t want to tell my kids or grandkids I was a failure I want to tell them I was able to pull myself together even if it was a bit late and headed for my goal. 


I need IDEAS!

I don’t get to write a lot since my brother mostly uses my macbook and I am using the Ipad ! I am not very comfortable using the ipad for long blog posts so I end up not having blog posts at all. I have still not started school, however I am trying to get my life back in track . I am trying to get rid of all my bad habits (procrastination ) etc , I am also trying to be more active physically and mentally. I am trying to SAVE up , and it’s going really well (probably because my social life is a complete mess especially because I don’t drive and I am too lazy to go out in the stupid weather) whatever the reason may be i saved 90% of my income in January and ended up giving all that for charity (YAY ME) . Now i am looking forward to a productive february though today is the first day and i am already feeling very lazy , if it were up to me I would indulge myself in a Sarah Dessen book and not do anything. But I am trying a lot of vegan recipes, self control, reading and I might start my LSAT prep. I am also thinking about finally applying to an undergrad program since it’s been almost 2 years since I graduated from high school and now I am TRULY fed up of sitting at home and messing up my academic life. What are your suggestions? I don’t know what I should do! 

How my financial crises affected my sponsored children

So this is a post filled with regret and apologies. I feel so bad to let down my previous sponsored children.
I was going through a BAD financial time by the end of October. My credit cards were maxed, my debit had an overdraft, and I was also late making my payments to World Vision. I was sponsoring a boy from Bangladesh and a girl from Costa Rica.
(I did not borrow money from my mom, because I only wanted to pay from my OWN money). So there came the time of January when I sorted my debts (my mom paid them all) and I had outdone the limit again. Post January I was in this anti social, pro natural life etc. So , I basically didn’t work , I was only baby sitting a child for a few hours a week where I hardly got paid anything. Whatever I got paid, I paid towards my card with the highest interest.
Then, in June, something happened and I decided to get back to my photography business. I hardly make any money but good enough for myself. Now when I got paid + gifts from family etc I was able to clear somewhat of my debt.
I called World Vision and I asked to make all the payments , I was informed the children I was sponsoring was now taken by someone else. I was paying $80 a month ( I know the approaching season will be slow for my business) hence i decided to take up one child.
This time, I didn’t want to take any risks so I paid 4 months in advance ($150) hence I don’t have to worry about it till December. Isn’t that amazing?
So now i have decided I will put some money aside especially for my sponsored child so whenever I mess up my accounts it doesn’t affect her. I should be more responsible, so I already put one of my payments aside in my savings account ($35) but I have vowed to not touch it no matter how much I need it.

Why you should Sponsor a child ?

No matter how irresponsible you are (if you are more than me, which I highly doubt) I think you get the feeling that you have to do something for someone else. I mean granted I was late by 9 months but I still thought that money would eventually go to the kids so I made the payments.
Sponsoring a child will also give you the feeling of happiness. This year has been my worst year, well somewhat it was terrible but I think this part of my year makes me VERY happy. I was able to do something for someone who really needed it.
I know people are worried if their money is going to the right place, but hello, you can spend $20 on a meal and $30 on a top and you can’t spend $40 on a person who really needs it? We have to take risks, right?

Go Sponsor a child NOW


Good news and bad news!

So , again I have to talk about my credit situation today!
The GOOD NEWS : One of my cards had a limit of $300 , interests increased it to $600 and I paid $100 off and the company said I will be able to use my card again if I clear at least $300 more. Isn’t that awesome?
BAD NEWS: I never went to my gym, but I have $500 due with them.
BAD NEWS: I have an overdraft of $200 with my bank and I still can’t understand WHY.

love my IPad Mini

After a good debate with myself, I decided on an IPad mini. My sole intent was iBooks with illegal books and a big screen! I love this thing, and I am giving my opinion on this ! To begin with I am not at all knowledgable about technology but all I care about is convenience.

1. The size of the mini is awesome! The IPad is too big for me. After reading with the Kobo Mini , this is amazing for me.

2. Convenience : I use a MacBook Pro and an IPod. So having an IPad is just another addition to my apple family of tech. But that’s not the point, I don’t have to connect the USB and load photos (thanks to photo stream) and I can use this to write out documents using pages!

3. iBooks! Enough said !